Today I REALLY had to remind myself of what I have accomplished so far in my journey.
I was visiting family and I just couldn't get myself out of my swimsuit cover-up. I was embarrassed of my stretch marks... my belly button isn't as pretty as it was before pregnancy... my bottoms were a little tighter than I thought they should have been...
I did eventually take the cover up off and got into the pool to cool off but when I got back out I put it on again... I haven't been this self conscious in a very very long time! I practice self love and work on myself EVERY DAY! So this was a feeling I was scared to see rise again in myself.
When we got home I took my shirt and skirt off, walked around the house in my bikini for a while to get myself ready to REALLY look at myself in the mirror. And you know what I saw... Yes stretch marks, yes my belly button, but I also saw a MOM that carried 3 babies in her body (2 at one time even!) I saw a woman that has worked hard to achieve an 87 pound weight-loss! My husband and my girls looked at me and they did not say one thing about my flaws that I was so scared to show the world.
So next time I am out with my family, I am not going to cover up because of my insecurities! I am going to be proud of how far I have come!
If you are anything like me and struggle with your self image, remember you are not alone! Even after all of this time I can fall back into the trap of my self doubt sometimes BUT I AM NOT going to let it consume me I am going to keep working on myself and NEVER will fall back into the spiral I was in before!
We can do this together :) Send me a message on Facebook or Email me, I would love to learn more about you!
-Mandy
